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Thursday, December 19, 2019

sitting in church imagining my own gruesome death isn't blasphemy it's love

by lei


from where I sit I swear the angels see me

as strangers preach of God 

or whatever pain or peace ascribed to Him

I swear the angels 

they see me hidden 

behind the comfort of ivory sounds

alone

staring into the lid lock bar of a stranger's baby grand 

I swear they see my eyes seeing

suspension

--that wooden bar 

a deadly beam from some precarious construction zone

whose fate I imagine impaled in flesh 

aimed at the bridge between my eyes

glued still, 

but slipping 

with every falter of my resolve not to join them 

yet